Book First..First Book

In the First Book in The Prelude, there was one particular section that really stood out to me, even though I do not fully understand it just yet. It was on page 34 and it consisted of lines 107 to 131. In short, this section’s main focus seems to be based off of William Wordsworth extreme passion for his dreams and nature. The first line says “I spare to speak, my friend, of what ensued –“, and this dash leads into an explanation from Wordsworth of something he does not want to talk about, which draws the reader in to find out what Wordsworth does not what to mention to his friend.
In lines 108 to 113, I felt a very positive vibe coming from Wordsworth. This was expressed through his use of positive language, such as ‘love’, ‘admiration’, ‘self-congratulation’, and ‘happiness’. With the use of these words at the beginning the reader can expect a complete turnaround according to the first line of this passage. This is apparent because in lines 114 until the end, the mood changes from this positive, loving attitude, to a saddened and discouraging attitude. From lines 114 to 124, Wordsworth leaves the reader under the impression that somebody or something has let him down. The use of negative toned words helps set the new mood for the rest of this passage, such as ‘longing’, ‘had hopes’, ‘oppressed’, ‘decay’, ‘rescue’, and ‘discouraged’. The rest of the passage has this same attitude and then it is revealed that the reader is upset with Mother Nature, who he calls ‘she’ and ‘her’.
“But I have been discouraged: gleams of lightFlash often from the east, then disappearAnd mock me with a sky that ripens notInto a steady morning.”
To me, Wordsworth is upset with Mother Nature because she did not bring him a sunny morning. After reading this passage, it is interesting of Wordsworth’s choice of words into the revealing of why he is upset and what he did not want to talk about. His choice of words came off as if he did not entirely want to blame Mother Nature or be upset with Mother Nature because she did not bring him a lovely sky in the morning. He is so upset that he has to go into his mind and remember what a ‘steady morning’ is supposed to be like. This is almost comical to me, because he did not want to tell the reader of his anger towards Mother Nature. Maybe he did not want to tell the reader because he thinks Mother Nature will hear him and she may do this again?
This brings me back to my point of Wordsworth being extremely passionate about his dreams and Mother Nature. In this section is extremely apparent how passionate he is about Mother Nature. Like I said before, he is so passionate that he does not even want to speak of the negative of Mother Nature, because it hurts him so much. Passion is one of the huge themes of The Prelude and this is only one portion that demonstrates his passion.